23 June 2008

running at fifty

You will look like this if you run too far, too fast, too often, too soon but when did I ever take good advice or embrace moderation? A couple of months ago I told myself I was starting off gently to build up but I set a pretty steep curve and allowed only one rest day a week.

At first I was stopping to walk during my 1.7 mile run, gasping for breath and my heart pounding. I would reach the finish with the watch stopping at just on twenty minutes and I would take another twenty to recover normal breathing and heart rate. Now, six weeks later, I can do that run in thirteen minutes ten seconds.

The “Map My Run” website, linked to Google Earth, lets you plot and measure routes and record times. I have five regular runs, the longest being five miles. Each time I run, I lower my best time by a few more seconds and am learning to pace myself on the longer outings.

Running as though I was still twenty-seven has been tough but the benefits are that my stamina has improved dramatically and my recovery time is now quite short. Oh, and I have lost twelve pounds in weight.

5 miles: 43 mins
3.2 miles: 28 mins 58 secs
2.6 miles: 22 mins 08 secs
1.7 miles: 13 mins 10 secs
1 mile: 7 mins 30 secs


Gordie said...

Wow; that's an achievement to be proud of. I've never been able to run, even when I was young and (vaguely) healthy.

Grace said...

Hey PV, thats impressive. Here I am trying to take muster the energy to do some decorating and you're doing all this. I think I'd kill myself if I tried running for a bus!

Perfect Virgo said...

Gordie - thanks, I am enjoying it despite the pain. Today I have a sore knee so I may take a couple of days off.

Grace - wielding a paintbrush can be pretty exhausting!

PATRICK said...


You brood of vipers! How will you escape being condemned to hell?
(MATTHEW 23: 33)

· A Perfect Virgo (my bro - Keep in touch!)

· AAwakening

· Alexis (You Go Girl!)

· Amias (I'm humbled and honored)

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· Andy

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· Blue (MIA)

· Bo (Dryblog)

· Boston

· Brad

· Cantellya

· Castor (R.I.P.)

· Cocaine Jesus

· dAAve

· Daily Piglet

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· Hippy Chick

· Jedi Michael

· Johno (MIA)

· KC

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· Kenny (my radical bro)

· Kim

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· Mark

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· Maui

· Meg

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· · Nettie

· · Noor

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· · Pam

· Phil (I miss you)

· RJ (I miss your sweet ass baby)

· Redhead Gal

· Rex

· Ricky

· Rusty

· Sam

· Scott

· Scott W.

· ScOut

· Shade (Where are you?)

· Shadow

· Shannon

· Sober Chick

· Steph (Still seeing you)

· Tab

· tkdjunkie

· Trudge


PATRICK said...



I hear the ANGELS whisperin' above,
"Pammy ... Pammy ... Pammy 's a LIAR"
The ole AA zombie, shape – shifting reptile
" Pammy ... Pammy ... Pammy 's a DEMON"

Does SATAN her lover, feel
What she feels
When he comes near?
His heart beats so demonically,
You'd think that MARK W could hear

Pam knows she’s a Liar
And dreamin' of SCOTT W
Pammy ... Pammy ... Pammy 's a BILL & BOB CLONE

Bill Wilson, Bill Wilson, she loves him you know
Pammy ... Pammy ... can't let him go
The breeze from the AA meeting

keeps murmuring low:
"Pammy... Pammy ... you love him so"

When her higher power is cold,
Hard and cold,
Pammy longs for dAAve’s, charms
She’d sing like Shadow
With Zane-nawwaa & Syd (in his arms)

She sat for an hour with Ms. Willingpants,

And sat for an hour with Ms. StepsOnARope as well.

Pammy ... Pammy ... Pammy 's a LIAR


PATRICK said...


I imagine 12 STEPPERS have sold their souls to the devil. Fortunately, I was saved through the power of Jesus Christ, but for many years had been exposed to the evil “satanic cult” (Alcoholics Anonymous) Wilson (AA) has prostituted himself & deluded many thousands (12 Step Groups) by worshipping the god Moloch (Ba’al the Sacred Bull). It all started with his (Wilson) “drug induced hallucination”….

Here are references to seances and other psychic events….

Bill would…”get” these things …long sentences, word by word would come through….” (22)

, he asked for guidance….The words began tumbling out with astonishing speed….(23)

So A.A.’s 12 Steps were actually received verbatim from the demonic world. It is not surprising, then, that the effect of A.A. upon many of its members is to lead them into occult involvement. In 1958, Wilson wrote to Sam Shoemaker,

Throughout A.A., we find a large amount of psychic phenomena, nearly all of it spontaneous. Alcoholic after alcoholic tells me of such experiences… run nearly the full gamut of everything we see in the books.

In addition to my original mystical experience, I’ve had a lot of such phenomenalism myself.(24)

Wilson’s “original mystical experience” was his alleged “conversion” –a classic occult encounter: “Suddenly the room lit up with a great white light. I was caught up into an ecstasy…it burst upon me that I was a free man…a wonderful feeling of Presence, and I thought to myself, ‘So this is the God of the preachers! ‘ A great peace stole over me….”(25)

This was not the “God of the preachers” but the one who transforms himself “into an angel of light” (2 Cor 1l:l4)-a light that often transforms those involved in the occult. The experience was so profound that Wilson never touched alcohol again. Satan would he more than willing to deliver a man from alcoholism in this life if thereby he could ensnare him for eternity and inspire him to lead millions to the same destruction!

Wilson joined the Oxford Group and regularly attended its meetings at Calvary Church (NY), pastored by Episcopalian Sam Shoemaker. Shoemaker urged his hearers to “accept God however they might conceive of him….”(26) Here was the origin of Step 3’s “God as we understood him.” God does not respond to those who call upon false gods. Jesus said, “And this is life eternal, that they might know thee, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom thou hast sent” (Jn 17:3). God’s judgment comes upon them “that know not God, and that obey not the gospel of our Lord Jesus Christ (2 Thes 1:8).

I will set my face against that man & his family & will cut off from their people both him & all who follow him in prostituting themselves to Molech. I will set my face against the person who turns to mediums & spiritists to prostitute himself by following them, & I will cut him off from his people. (Leviticus 20: 5, 6)

Moloch the God Ba’al, the Sacred Bull, was widely worshipped in the ancient Near East and wherever Carthaginian culture extended. Baal Moloch was conceived under the form of a calf or an ox or depicted as a man with the head of a bull.

Hadad, Baal or simply the King identified the god within his cult. The name Moloch is not the name he was known by among his worshippers, but a Hebrew Moloch (in the Septuagint Greek translation of the Old Testament), or Molech (Hebrew), is no different than the word Melech or king, transformed by interposing the vowels of bosheth or ’shameful thing’. translation. The written form.
He is sometimes also called Milcom in the Old Testament.

I beg you, to to get out while you can (12 Step) or end up as an emotionally shutdown, raging, shape - shifting, Bill Wilson zombie.


PATRICK said...

"Hey Bob"

Hey, hey BOB, my higher power, will always do
I've waited so long for BOOZE to be through
BOB, I can't wait to meet you
My love, my love

Hey BILL, I've had a BRAINSTORM too
Hey, hey, hey BILL, I want to meet you too
If your PROGRAM is true, if you love AA, BILL!!
The BIG BOOK will always be real
My love, my love

AA means planning a life for two
Being together the whole day through
True SOBRIETY means waiting and hoping that soon
WE become "brain dead" zombies
My love, my love.


PATRICK said...



You talk crap;
You know its over;
But AA goes on & you old ZOMBIE will keep on turning.
Just be sad you sold your soul to SATAN
Theres no need to mimic BILL WILSON he’s still bur..... ning.

Lay your head upon your BIG BOOK;
Hold your cold and anorexic body close to CHAPTER 5.
Hear the whisper of the 12 STEPS
Blowing hard against your higher power
And make believe you’ll 13th STEP a NEWCOMER one more time
For the SOBER times.

You wont get along; you’re an ABOMINATION;
You talk "garbage" at every AA meeting
Be a SHAPE – SHIFTING REPTILE tomorrow or forever.
Therell be time enough for sadness
When you become a BILL & BOB CLONE.

Lay your head upon your SPONSOR;
Hold your cold and anorexic body close to SCOTT W
Hear the whisper of MARK W
Blowing hard against Mary Christine
And make believe your ZANE JABBERS one more time
For the SOBER times.


PATRICK said...

The word "alcoholic" is not in the BIBLE. There is no mention of the 12 Steps or that ALCOHOLISM, is a DISEASE – in the BIBLE. One is either a DRUNKARD or was a DRUNKARD – end of story.

Bill Wilson manufactured the BIG BOOK & the 12 STEPS out of his head, and millions of GROUPERS (12 STEPPERS) have been “hoodwinked” by his anti – Christ propaganda.

Labelling oneself, as an ALCOHOLIC is THE MARK OF THE BEAST – one has condemned oneself to the fiery furnace. In HELL, there is no chance of REDEMPTION. AA is HELL!


PATRICK said...


You know, the message the 12 Step Paradigm tells us that we are all just powerless over our addictions, meaningless specks of offal in an endless ocean of space and matter where hydrogen atoms and bacteria of unexplained origin can turn into god as you understand him!!

Oooo! It’s so exciting and uplifting to be regularly assured by Steppers in all their ineffable knowledge and function is just an accumulation of 1st Century Christianity, Buchmanism & Nihilism.

Oooo! It’s heart-warming, I’ll tell ya. We owe these "messengers" so terribly much that it is difficult to put into words... We can talk to dead people & consult spiritists.

9 When you enter the land the LORD your God is giving you, do not learn to imitate the detestable ways of the nations there. 10 Let no one be found among you who sacrifice his son or daughter in the fire, who practices divination or sorcery, interprets omens, engages in witchcraft, 11 or casts spells, or who is a medium or spiritist or who consults the dead. 12 Anyone who does these things is detestable to the LORD, and because of these detestable practices the LORD your God will drive out those nations before you. 13 You must be blameless before the LORD your God [Deuteronomy 18: 9-13]

Wilson was a “detestable necromancer” who talked to dead people & consulted spiritists. He was “an angel of light” and if you Steppers want what he had, keep going to 12 Step meetings & end up as emotionally shutdown, shape - shifting reptiles.

I beg of you to see the True Light [John 3: 16] & have Eternal Life, not death [12 Steps].


PATRICK said...


I imagine AA to be a cancerous growth in our society. I'm a recovered alcoholic who has been sober for over 22 years. I've seen this "cult" virtually destroy people where they become these Bill & Bob zombies devoid of any emotion.

I imagine most of the Steppers are not dealing with their core issues and become addicted to the "droning Bill & Bob heads" who pop up and expel meaningless diatribe from their mouths.

Alcoholism is the only "disease" one doesn't recover from & one is continually confessing ones non - existent sins, which intensify the guilt and fear when one is not at a meeting (indoctrination session).

I imagine AA meetings numb and shutdown the critical thinking section of ones brain. I know a guy who has been sober for over 30 years and I imagine him to be quite mad - he doesn't even know what he's feeling most of the time apart from feeling depressed.

I imagine AA to be the road to hell and that it's anti - Christ and the Steppers sell their souls to the "cult", because they are too terrified to face their “demons” & recover their true selves.

That "inner child" who is waiting to be freed is slowly pushed down until it disappears into oblivion. That "child" is God! "Unless you become like little children...." "The kingdom of God is within you!" I hear things like; "I need to do the Steps!" "I need more meetings!" "I had cancer or my wife died or I lost my job!" "But! Guess what! I didn't pick up a drink".

They might as well say; "I fell of my chair but I didn’t pick up a drink”! "Meaningless”! Why? Because one is not expressing ones feelings! Ones process is all about feelings! How does one recover if one doesn’t feel ones pain, fear, & shame & understand that these feelings, especially if they are overwhelming; are feelings, from ones childhood.

All AA does is suppress these feelings until one ends up a semi - depressed zombie like the lunatic who has been sober for over 30 years. Can you see how dangerous this "cult" is?

A madman, Bill Wilson, started it and if you want to end up like him, keep going to meetings. The sure way to insanity is "Meetings!" "Meetings!" "Meetings!"


PATRICK said...


Interview with Dick B:
Kathy: How would you describe to someone reading this interview the difference between the disease of alcoholism and what they could have – hope, that is?

Dick B: I have sponsored about 80 or so guys in AA. After a few years they don’t say, "Is this all there is?" Instead they say, "This isn’t all there is!" And that message means everything! I knew a young man who was about 24 years old and in the army. He had screwed up his life, and after a year sober he said, "Dick I owe everything to you." I told him, "No, you owe everything to God. The world is your oyster.

Start cracking it open and looking for the pearl." What you can offer people is unlimited, and sometimes we sell short what is available to us right now – health, forgiveness, avoidance of shame, guilt, and despair. Fourteen years ago I wanted to kill myself. That is not unusual with this disease. I didn’t see that there was anything else.

I didn’t have a drink for five months but I was just afloat in a bunch of AA meetings, sicker than a dog, shaking like a leaf, wetting my pants and facing all kinds of criminal charges, and so forth. I read a little book, The Bible Tells Me So, and it said prisons are not made of steel alone. There are anxieties, frustrations, fears and secrets that mess with a person and keep him from God.

Yet AA can offer people hope. They can be relieved of the guilt and the shame and the physical infirmities. God delivered me through AA. My life was a mess. Where I am today is in a lot different position. I’ve grown closer to my family. I’m nuts about my two sons, two granddaughters and life. That’s what you have to talk to people about – the hope of change. In the beginning it is a strict regimen – don’t drink and go to meetings until your minds clear a little.

But the quicker a drunk is introduced to God, as they then understand Him, the better. One of the nicest things about AA is at the end of every meeting you hold hands and you recite the Lord’s Prayer. At the end of that you say, "Keep coming back. It works." And it does. For a while all you can do is just hang on to the "It works." My sponsor used to look at me and smile. And I would think, "I guess it does." That’s the message. And it’s a good one.

Kathy: I wish my Dad could have talked to you for he was struggling in the last few years of his life.

Dick: Well, there is no denying the devastation that alcoholism causes to the individual and the family. The Lowe Family Foundation’s focus is on the family, which is one place where renewal does happen when AA works right. Part of the redemptive process is making amends to those people you love.

It may produce no fruit in them, but it will produce fruit for you. And my own view is that if you work at it a long time, it will produce fruit for your family, too. And if it doesn’t, that’s not your problem. It is God’s problem and He can solve it. He can solve all your problems. AA’s medicine is God and God alone. "Each day should be a day of high adventure.

I must keep spiritually fit in order to be responsive, sensitive, alert, and aware of the significance of every act… I cannot do this unless I "wait on God" and seek humbly and confidently to ascertain His will in my life. He does speak to those who listen. ‘In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths.’"*

*(Turning Point, A History of AA’s Spiritual Roots and Successes, by Dick B., page 298, quote from Brown, The Venture of Belief, and page 40)

Dick, I imagine you to be an emotionally shutdown, shape-shifting reptile who has sold his soul to the Devil. You are leading others’ onto the wrong path with your moronic ramblings about the history of AA, God, The Bible, Wilson, and Smith et al.

You haven’t once mentioned Jesus Christ in your “meaningless diatribe.” AA is a prison (HELL) for lost souls like you. You are a terrified “little boy,” who is too petrified to face his demons. How have you recovered, Dicky? What have you recovered, Richard? You are a classic "control freak,” Dicky? Satan is a CLASSIC "control freak”, too!!

How do you feel, Dicky?


PATRICK said...

Mr. Bill Wilson, founder of Alcoholics Anonymous (A.A.) and creator of the twelve-step program. Mr. Wilson was heavily influenced by demons. Chapter sixteen (p. 275f) of 'Pass It On' The Story of Bill Wilson and how the A.A. message reached the world records

Mr. Wilson's use of the ouija board, participation in séances, psychic events, "spook sessions", table levitation, and how he would receive "messages" from "discarnate" spirits.

Bill Wilson was clearly in contact with demons, and this is the man who created the deceptive twelve-step program.

Make a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God, as we understood Him. (Step #11. Emphasis added.) The last part of this statement ("as we understood Him") is enough to damn your soul! God says, Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. (Proverbs 3:5).

This is the exact opposite of "God as we understood Him." All men, according to Romans 1:18-32, are condemned before God, because they rely upon their own understanding (Romans 1:21; Ephesians 4:18, "having their understanding darkened"), and they create (in their own darkened minds) a god of their own making (Romans 1:23).

To encourage people to turn their "lives over to the care of God as we understood Him", is to encourage people to "turn their lives over to a god of their own making" (i.e. according to their own understanding).

This promotes nothing more than spiritual death (Revelation 22:15). In addition, these twelve steps are a deceitful attack against the saving work of the Lord Jesus Christ (i.e. they are against Christ, antichrist, 2 John 7; Colossians 2:8-10).

The twelve steps are (as Mr. Wilson used them) given as an answer (a way) in which one can overcome sin (with Mr. Wilson's case, the sin of drunkenness).

Jesus Christ is the ONLY answer for sin. He is the only way (John 14:6). There is only ONE "step", and that is faith in the Saviour (Ephesians 2:8/Matthew1:21/John 8:36/Romans10: 13!

The above exemplifies the "twelve steps" are what are used to "become free from addictive, compulsive" behaviour (i.e. sin). In other words, the twelve steps are the saviour! No doubt it is deceptive, because "Biblical principles" are interwoven throughout; but if they weren't, few (if any) would be deceived.

One good question to ask would be, "Where does Scripture talk about any 'twelve steps'"? The answer? Nowhere!

These twelve steps come from Satan (via Bill Wilson), who is the master deceiver (Revelation 12:9). Remember, Satan used Scripture to tempt Christ (Matthew 4:6), and Balaam spoke much truth (Numbers 23-24); but he was a false prophet (2 Peter 2:15-16/Numbers 22).

In Matthew 7:13-14 Jesus warned, Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it.

Jesus likewise warned in Luke 13:24, Strive to enter through the narrow gate, for many, I say to you, will seek to enter and will not be able.


PATRICK said...


Bill W. : The absorbing and deeply moving life story of Bill Wilson, co-founder of Alcoholics Anonymous
Robert Thomsen

1-8 of 8 pages with reference to Bill W’s Higher Power inside this book:

on Page 152:
“… BILL W. something more conservative to balance his holdings, he had hit … and, more perhaps than anything, gave him the sense of power he had always craved. Late in the summer he grew … they told him, everything was high, but it was going higher. American Tel and Tel was over 310, General Electric 403. It was a time to have confidence . It was …”

on Page 189:
“… BILL W. tried praying, and keeping an open mind about it … … using the word “God” again, Ebby began speaking of “another power,” a “higher power.” And as he did, Bill was no longer pretending to listen; his full attention had been won. It was …”

on Page 202:
“… BILL W. rightness. No matter how wrong things seemed to be, they … a part of God, himself a living part of the higher power, was a new and revolutionary feeling. And it was a feeling that he wanted to hang on to now, to …”

on Page 230:
“… BILL W. over, he would find himself startled into a smile. There … All he wanted was to feel himself part of the higher power he knew was running the universe. He was also convinced that alcoholism was a three-pronged illness , mental, physical and …”

on Page 240:
“… BILL W. more than a game they were playing, more than a … pragmatists. They might have been instruments, channels through which a higher power had started to work, but for them that afternoon, it was only a start. Forty was a startling figure, but …”

on Page 294:
“… BILL W. But the non-alcoholics remained skeptical. To the psychiatrically oriented, all … inner voice, but in talking with others he would say higher power, life force or any words the listener might be comfortable with. But by whatever name they cared to use, it …”

on Page 298:
“… BILL W. But as with the mysterious ingredient that he knew was … the verge of grasping a message or moving into some higher state of consciousness , he had never talked about it; … years he went on following, trying to understand, a mysterious power he sensed was there, a part of his concept of anonymity. Though he could not quite comprehend its meaning, he …”

on Page 324:
“… BILL W. what has been his fate. Our conversation which he has … when you walk on a path which leads you to higher understanding. You might be led to that goal by an … action from above and isolated in society, cannot resist the power of evil, which is called very aptly the Devil. But the use of such words arouses so many mistakes that …”

1-1 of 1 page with references to Jesus Christ inside this book:
1. on Page 193:
“… some-for the old, the hopeless, for those who had passed beyond loving, beyond any hope of really living, but, by Christ, he was different. It might be the last arrogant gasp of alcoholic pride but, miserable and terrified as he was, …”

MATTHEW 23:15 "Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You travel over land and sea to win a single convert, and when he becomes one, you make him twice as much a son of hell as you are.


PATRICK said...

I don't attend AA meetings anymore -- thank God. I imagine leaving AA becomes more difficult the longer one has been exposed to this evil, soul-destroying cult. I read with some sadness of an AA ZOMBIE who wanted to leave but found it difficult because AA was his whole life.

One becomes trapped & I imagine most AA ZOMBIES feel safe albeit quite isolated from the real world. I imagine most AA ZOMBIES don’t have the guts to quit(AA)?

My process (REDEMPTION) started in 1994 (therapy, etc) but it took me many years to make a complete break from all 12 Step programs (I was also going to SLAA, CODA, ACOA).

I imagine most “alcoholics” are terrified of intimacy (emotional cowards) & attending12 Step programs are the ultimate escape (from intimacy), because of the indoctrination ("If you quit AA -- You will drink").

I would suggest that quite a few of the AA ZOMBIES are "pussies" because they won’t face life "full on" without the "crutch" of 12 Step programs.


PATRICK said...

Rarely have we seen a person fail who thoroughly filled their bath. Those who are not BRAINWASHED are people who cannot or will not completely give themselves to this UTTER GARBAGE, usually men and women who are constitutionally capable of thinking for themselves. There are such fortunates.

They are not at fault; they seem to have been born premature. They are naturally capable of building and developing muscles, which demands rigorous training. Their chances are 6/4 on.

There are those, too, who are gravediggers and undertakers, but many of them do become ZOMBIES if they have the capacity to be dishonest. Our stories disclose in a twisted way, who we like, what happened, and who we hate now. If you have decided you want a cup of tea and are willing to go to any lengths to become emotionally shutdown, SHAPE SHIFTING REPTILES - then you are ready to take certain steps. At some of these we balked, we thought we could find someone to 13th STEP.

And we realised, we could. With all the madness at our command, we beg of you to become BILL WILSON CLONES - from the very start. Some of us have tried to hold on to our BIG BOOKS and the result was nil until we let go of our SPONSORS. Remember that we deal with alcohol, frothy, bubbly, and powerful! Without help it is too much for us. But there is one who has all power that one is the BARMAN. May you find Him now!

Half measures availed us nothing. We stood at the bar. We asked the BARMAN for a couple of stiff vodka's. Here are the steps we took, which are suggested as a program to INSANITY:

1.We admitted we were powerless over Coca - Cola, and decided to drink Pepsi, instead.

2.Came to believe that Cold Power was a detergent.

3.Made a decision to turn our heads when we saw an attractive blonde.

4.Did a body search of the new members.

5.Admitted to our DOG, to elves, and to another super being the exact nature of our songs.

6.Were entirely ready to have SUPERMAN remove the effects of kryptonite.

7.Humbly asked CLARK KENT to remove our brains.

8.Made a list of all persons who owed us money, and became willing to charge them interest.

9.Made direct hits wherever possible, except when someone moved the target.

10.Continued to talk crap and when we were wrong, promptly talked more crap.

11.Sought through our mail and computer to improve our conscious contact with BATMAN, as we understood him, praying only for knowledge of ROBIN and the return of SPIDERMAN.

12.Having had a stroke as the result of these steps, we tried to carry out the garbage, and fell flat on our backs.

Many of us exclaimed, "What an order! I can't go through with it." Do not be discouraged. No one among us has been able to maintain their homes and 13th Step the newcomers, at the same time. We are not psychopaths. The point is, that we are willing to become psychotic. The principles we have set down are guides to psychosis. We claim that BILL WILSON WAS A PSYCHOPATH.

Our description of the landscape, the chapter to the gnostic, and our family photos before and after make clear three pertinent ideas:

(a) That we were ugly and could not manage our own appearance.

(b) That probably no photographer could have improved our looks.

(c) That a PLASTIC SURGEON could and would if he were sought.



PATRICK said...


Hllo! DARKNESS, my old friend
I’ve come to talk crap again,
An AA meeting softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the 12 STEPS that were planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of sobriety.

In restless meetings I walked alone
Bill Wilson Clones, made
Beneath the "halo" of an OLD TIMER,
I turned my collar to the 1st and 3rd Step
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of
That split the night
And touched the sound of sobriety.

And in the naked light I saw
A million ZOMBIES maybe more.
ZOMBIES reading the BIG BOOK,
ZOMBIES hearing without listening,
ZOMBIES writing their 4th STEP
And no one dared
Disturb the sound of sobriety.

ZOMBIES said I, you do not know
SOBRIETY like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might BRAINWASH you,
Take my arms that I might 13th Step you.
But my words like the higher power fell,
And echoed
In the halls of sobriety.

And the ZOMBIES ranted and raved
To the AA god they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning,
In the words that it was forming.
And the sign said, KEEP COMING BACK
Whispered in the sound of sobriety.


PATRICK said...

I imagine 12 Step recovery programs are a slow slide into the jaws of Satan. I was involved with the evil “satanic cult” [AA] for over 30 years but was saved through the power of Jesus Christ. He directed me to a therapist who was into “real” recovery, not the mind destroying, soul destroying, cult, which is AA. I have met two ZOMBIES recently & I imagine they are completely devoid of any emotion or insight.

I feel pain because both these men are decent human beings but AA has destroyed their BRAIN STRUCTURE & they have no idea how to relate apart from expounding AA propaganda. I imagine HELL to be a continuous flow of AA meetings without any light at the end of the tunnel because one is never REDEEMED. I beg you ZOMBIES who are in 12 Step programs, to get out before it is too late.

How does one recover when one is handing one’s power over to SATAN (AA)? The 12 Steps were written out of “Wilson’s head,” he certainly didn’t get his guidance from the BIBLE. I imagine he was an agent of Satan & he & Smith’s “cult religion” has filled millions of ZOMBIES with their anti - Christ propaganda.

Step Three of AA is "Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood him." While many in the Oxford Group placed their faith in Jesus Christ as Lord and Saviour, there was much leeway given. Shoemaker, a leader of the Oxford Group, says, "The true meaning of faith is self-surrender to God." He further explains:
Surrender to whatever you know about Him, or believe must be the truth about Him. Surrender to Him, if necessary, in total ignorance of Him. Far more important that you touch Him than that you understand Him at first. Put yourself in His hands. Whatever He is, as William James said, He is more ideal than we are. Make the leap. Give yourself to Him.
Aside from capitalizing the "H," which Christians do to refer to the God of the Bible, "Him" could refer to any god of one’s own making [BEDPAN].

Can you see what is happening to you? Ask JESUS to take control of your lives, read the Bible & instead of 12 Step groups, go to Church. Burn your Big Book or use it as toilet paper. Can you see the difference: With The 12 Steps, you are never REDEEMED, but with John 3:16 you are guaranteed Eternal Salvation. The “ball is in your court?”


PATRICK said...


From Bill's Story:
Co - founder of AA, Bill Wilson's story has been in every edition of the book Alcoholics Anonymous.

With ministers, and the world's religions, I parted right there. When they talked of a God personal to me, who was love, superhuman strength and direction, I became irritated and my mind snapped shut against such a theory.

To Christ I conceded the certainty of a great man, not too closely followed by those who claimed Him. His moral teaching -- most excellent. For myself, I had adopted those parts, which seemed convenient and not too difficult; the rest I disregarded.

My friend suggested what then seemed a novel idea. He said, "Why don't you choose your own conception of God?"

That statement hit me hard. It melted the icy intellectual mountain in whose shadow I had lived and shivered many years. I stood in the sunlight at last.

It was only a matter of being willing to believe in a Power greater than myself. Nothing more was required of me to make my beginning. I saw that growth could start from that point. Upon a foundation of complete willingness I might build what I saw in my friend. Would I have it? Of course I would!

Thus was I convinced that God is concerned with us humans when we want Him enough? At long last I saw, I felt, I believed. Scales of pride and prejudice fell from my eyes. A new world came into view.

The real significance of my experience in the Cathedral burst upon me. For a brief moment, I had needed and wanted God. There had been a humble willingness to have Him with me -- and He came. But soon the sense of His presence had been blotted out by worldly clamours, mostly those within myself. And so it had been ever since. How blind I had been.

At the hospital I was separated from alcohol for the last time. Treatment seemed wise, for I showed signs of delirium tremens.

There I humbly offered myself to God, as I then I understood Him, to do with me as He would. I placed myself unreservedly under His care and direction. I admitted for the first time that of myself I was nothing; that without Him I was lost. I ruthlessly faced my sins and became willing to have my newfound Friend take them away, root and branch. I have not had a drink since. Simple, but not easy; a price had to be paid. It meant destruction of self-centeredness. I must turn in all things to the Father of Light who presides over us all.

These were revolutionary and drastic proposals, but the moment I fully accepted them, the effect was electric. There was a sense of victory, followed by such a peace and serenity, as I had never known. There was utter confidence. I felt lifted up, as though the great clean wind of a mountaintop blew through and through. God comes to most men gradually, but His impact on me was sudden
and profound.

For a moment I was alarmed, and called my friend, the doctor, to ask if I were still sane. He listened in wonder as I talked.

Finally he shook his head saying, "Something has happened to you I don't understand. But you had better hang on to it. Anything is better than the way you were." The good doctor now sees many men who have such experiences. He knows that they are real.

While I lay in the hospital the thought came that there were thousands of hopeless alcoholics who might be glad to have what had been so freely given me. Perhaps I could help some of them. They in turn might work with others.

There is no mention of JESUS CHRIST in the BIG BOOK or the 12 STEPS. SATAN to delude millions of people used Wilson.

John 3:16 (chapter 3, verse 16 of the Gospel of John) are one of the most widely quoted verses from the Christian Bible. It has been called the "Bible in a nutshell" because it is considered a summary of some of the most central doctrines of traditional Christianity:

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have Eternal Life.


PATRICK said...



Is not the time coming, and the day hastening, when covetous men shall be ashamed of loving the world, and voluptuous men ashamed of loving their pleasures, and ambitious men ashamed of loving their honors?

For is it not a horrid shame, that a rational creature should be such a sot as to love sin which is most loathsome, and not to love Jesus who is most lovely? To love deformity, and not beauty?

Oh shame, shame! It is a shame that sin should have such esteem, and Jesus such great contempt put upon him. But shame shall before long confound these now shameless wretches, when they shall cry out, "We are ashamed that we loved profits, and not Jesus- houses, lands, lusts, and not Jesus.

This is the confusion of our faces, and shame covers us-- that we should be so foolish, and so blind, that we had not sense, nor reason, to distinguish between sin, which is the greatest and most odious evil, and Jesus who is the greatest and most lovely good."

But the time will never come, the day will never be, that a gracious soul shall be ashamed of his sincere love to Jesus Christ.


Michelle said...

Hey Patrick, less is more!

cocaine jesus said...

Still as mad as a hatter. Must be a Brit then!

Perfect Virgo said...

Michelle - let's hope the man with verbal leakage pays attention!

CJ - the expression, "mad dogs and Englishmen go out in the mid-day sun" needs to be upheld and I am doing my bit!

GeL (Emerald Eyes) said...

Great news that you have increased your stamina. You have remarkable determination and structure, besides terrific results.

I've usually performed plenty of regular exercise, but the aerobic type had diminished in the past 5 yrs to less dancing and more start/stop activity. Recently, I began dancing alone when Gem travels, but jitterbugging and other dances with him(ie. Vienese Waltz) are more fun and wow, do we burn up the calories!

(Uh, didn't think you needn't to lose any weight...?? unless it's Michele's terrific cooking?)

Perfect Virgo said...

GEL - You're right I don't need to lose weight but the exercise, coupled with a low calorie intake these days, has turned me from skinny to scrawny.

Yes it does take determination to keep at this running business because it is such hard work to begin with. Yep, I'm pleased with the results too and I am sure there is plenty of improvement still to come.

GeL (Emerald Eyes) said...

I have to be careful of scrawny, too. Our daughter entreated me to eat more, but it's not that. I eat more than many men, although I eat every healthful frequent small meals. My metabolism is high.

I've recently begun some resistance weight training to add bone density since I must prevent osteoporosis from increasing. My drs. say I get more than enough aerobics for my heart, etc from walking 5+ miles a day, dancing, swimming, on top of me being very active (I just dont' sit still much) and am on my feet almost all day. I love to run but couldn't do a marathon like you. I run free like along the beach- that type of running. Keep going for it, Paul!