05 January 2006

Library on a pin head

I'm feeling somewhat disjointed. Picture, title, text and lyric have only tenuous links. Things are getting smaller and thinner and have fewer obvious controls. Soon we will operate stuff by merely thinking about it. Anyway this year's batteries have worn out and the new gadgets are broken so I watch the swirling dry leaves and gaze at the ice blue sky and think about winter. Somehow I need to restart the generator and drive some effort into the New Year. Will this be the year that brings contentment? Let's get through to spring first, nothing much happens before then.

I don't go to the cinema because it is full of people and the films are too long. I like to watch in the comfort of my own home with a pause button. I loved "X-Files" when it first screened on Sky TV in the UK in 1993. But by Season Three it was given a primetime slot on BBC1 and cult status had definitely worn off. "Quit while you're ahead" doesn't seem to apply when there are commercial pressures being brought to bear. I sweated out a couple more Seasons with diminishing interest as the golden goose dropped base metal eggs until director Chris Carter let loose his creative attention on "Millennium." It was deliciously dark, shadowy, moody and unfathomable, in fact everything "X-Files" no longer was.

Carter had the opportunity to start a new cult and he took it. He continued to churn out Nine Seasons of "X-Files" to appease the masses but sneaked "Millennium" onto our screens with almost no fanfare. I like this form of gritty, realistic drama with a trace of the paranormal. Episodes are delivered in manageable one hour packages, each with a beginning a middle and an end, yet sufficient continuity for me to develop an affinity with the characters and situations. The postman just delivered me a nice chunky boxed set of the complete "Millennium" Seasons One to Three. Something to look forward to.

Each of us has opportunity, we just need to nurture our ability and develop a motive. I started reading blogs over a year ago but barely a handful of my original discoveries survive. So for many there was opportunity and ability but the motive failed. Isn't that the hardest thing, to keep going? Then to keep going and keep going...

We talked about music lately. There are very few artists where I can stick the proverbial pin in their discography, not many cut gem after gem. I chose to review the Bowie album simply because it had a big early influence on me but there are others I could have chosen by different artists. Top of the shortlist might be Pink Floyd, Radiohead or REM there are very few duds in those archives.

For most their star burns brightly and briefly. Sales figures never lie, take a look at any catalogue of hit albums. Run your finger down the "number of weeks on the charts" column and the zenith of an artist's career becomes very apparent. The buying public only parts with cash for months on end when the product is worth it. I won't name names but consider various dinosaurs still lumbering around today and now look at their performance in the 1970s. I think you’ll find a string of two or three number one albums each spending over a year on the charts followed by umpteen releases barely making the lower reaches of the top forty for a month.

The creative peak is very high and very pointed. Very few can sit at the top continually breathing the thin air of success. For the rest I am thankful because they bring variety streaking in low, hard and fast into our mundane lives. They light up our existence and bring inspiration, all credit to them for "burning up on re-entry."

A long, dark January evening stretches out ahead so I’ll settle back into my armchair, laptop close by and perhaps watch an Episode of "Millennium." Later I could surf the music channels to try and catch the next skyrocket, who knows I may enjoy the ride.

"Can you take me back to that
Place where stars glow
Comets swarm like fireflies
Outside your window"
The Stills – Lola Stars and Stripes


Queen Neetee said...

I do understand what you're saying. I am there too. Going out to a movie? Forget it! It has to be extremely special for me to nestle in with a whispering crowd.

Now, as for "Millennium" (hooray!). My favorite episode is the one about a Dr. Kevorkian Karaoke singing character. That was great. Oh, and the one when Charles Nelson Reilly played a character named Jose Chung who was stalked by a Selfologist. That was one of the best ever! The humor was amazing.

Thank you for a post that I really "get".
Have a perfectly good time with your "Millenium" box set.

Cocaine Jesus said...

And the older you get, in terms of virtually all the things that I am passionate about but specifically music, the harder it is to find genuine original talent. Like you I still love those old albums and am still in love with the artist’s original intent, Bowie, Dylan, Cave, PJ Harvey et al BUT I so wish sometimes that more acts were like the Pistols or even the Beatles. Trail blazing comets that come and go and leave you utterly breathless and awe struck in their wake.

I don’t mind the cinema, in fact my son and I went to watch King Kong recently but I do so detest shopping at places like Tesco where people gather in a bovine act of senseless food gathering ritual. I get very confused by it all and even aggressive when they start herding toward me with their out of control trolleys.

Blogging may go the way of pop music. Brilliant white heat of creativity to begin with and then a slow decay and decline as fashion dictates and art fades. I hope not.
The reason I enjoy working with you is two fold.
1. You can write and not just a lot of claptrap but genuine words which contain elements of your passion or disdain. I like that.
2. You act as a motivation tool for me. I was beginning to just do it. A function and not a passion. You have rekindled that. Just like Elvis Costello said “Pump it up, until you can’t feel it. Pump it up, when you don’t really mean it”. With you on board I DO>

Ritual Acts with Penguins gets slagged off by one or two ‘real poets’ who say my words are not poetry.
They are.
I say they are and that is all she wrote BUT I am very aware of the obvious pitfall of repeating the material that I know I am good at and not having the balls to try something different for me. I will continue to experiment with it until I get bored.

This site of yours is wonderful to read. Painful at times with its honesty and often brutally self critical. It is by its own design organic. It depends on your input of course but it also requires a certain amount of inter reaction via the comments section from your (what do I call ‘em fans? Supporters? Followers? Disciples?) and that is a vital part as I allows you and the reader to join in and debate what ever it is that you have written about. It shares all of your doubts about yourself and about modern life in general and acts as a foil by which we, as your readers, can identify with and empathise with and of course the one thing blogging has done for me is to show me that (and I’m gonna quote Bowie here) “we are not alone”.

Another well written post PV. Another dip into your soul and at the same time, with that incredible ability of yours, a reflection of our own.


Do we have some winter blues? I say "we" because well I know I do.
I see you,
PS: I do not watch the X-Files or Millennium. So I haven't a clue.

Perfect Virgo said...

Queen Neetee - welcome! I have seen you over at Finn's and at CJ's. I'm not a lover of crowds or a jumper on bandwagons. I like what I like.

Thankfully Millennium never really took off over here, it was always in the shade of X-Files so I had the smug feeling of being part of a small cult which stayed that way. I think if you can relate to the humanity in Frank Black and his wife then all the rest just slots neatly into place.

Thank for your kind comments and I look forward to delving into the box.

CJ - a comment of most respectable proportions sir! Firstly let me say how honoured I am that you can relate to my thoughts and even, dare I say, draw some inspiration. This is what makes the whole thing worthwhile.

I write about sentiments that trouble me, please me, worry me and even scare me. So when people "get" it that's a proper connection. This blog would have stalled long ago without the smart and wonderful people who comment here week after week. The debate and the sharing of ideas makes this a great little community.

As to negative criticism I cannot for the life of me see how that could be levelled at your poetry CJ. If it is then the so-called real poets are blind. I wish I could write with your visceral intensity.

Soul-gazing is scary so I am grateful for this company who gaze with me. The feedback reminds me "I am not alone."

JJ - if you are not keen on sci-fi then you may have been put off by the trailers for these shows. However they stand up well as moody dramas laced with the supernatural.

Got those melancholy winter blues!

finnegan said...

As I've not watched television since my teen years, I am rather out of the loop here and so will leave the comments to those like Neetee who "get it".

Going to the cinema used to be a major obsession of mine. But the price one has to pay for first-run films (which are more often than not merely remakes and recycled pop songs as soundtracks) is getting hard to stomach. Sure arthouses are the glorious exception, but they are a rare breed anywhere outside of a metropolis.

And blogging: "Each of us has opportunity, we just need to nurture our ability and develop a motive."


.."So for many there was opportunity and ability but the motive failed. Isn't that the hardest thing, to keep going? Then to keep going and keep going...

Amen. And now you and Neetee have got me curious about "Millenium".

And C.J. has fashioned a 5 course dinner up there!

Trudging said...

Winter can be hard! I see you!!!

Jen said...

I feel very much the same about TV, movies, music, creativity. I usually like things UNTIL they get popular and it seems when they do get popular they get watered-down somehow.

I hope you are well. I've been thinking about you and the changes ahead. :-)

Cocaine Jesus said...

banquet finn, banquet. and queenie, PV and even you are invited.
(floots can play the bagpipes as entertainment).

Patry Francis said...

Speaking of things getting increasingly smaller and more technologically miraculous, I recently read a book called "The Singularity is Near" on exactly that subject. Actually, I only got through half of it. I found the prospect more disturbing than anything else--the loss of the human scale.

just sayin' said...

I love the image on this post. I had to enlarge it several times to be sure was not some sort of deep-sea goldfish. LOL

Have you ever been around full-spectrum lights? They would be good for your winter blues.

Perfect Virgo said...

Morgan - a screen shot of actor Lance Henriksen. Moody yes?

velvetgunther said...

Hey, came here from Cocaine Jesus' music blog. You're a cool guy!